Last weekend, in what seemed like out of the blue, an intense sadness washed over me.
There wasn’t anything noticeable that would cause this reaction so I immediately searched for the typical triggers that set me off. I wasn’t able to find anything that really stood out.
I was with our 3 year old son Dillon and decided to shake it off by taking him to the park. There’s something about that kid’s bright smile and twinkling eyes that can shift me out of a funk.
At the park I felt like a turtle without a shell. My skin felt inside out. I was uncomfortable. Then, I hear a scream and see a little boy has been thrown a few feet by walking behind a swing his brother was swinging in.
The boy’s very pregnant mom screams and his dad scoops him up. They both panic as the boy’s eyes roll in to the back of his head and his arms flop to the side.
With horror on her face, I see the mom reach for her phone to call 911. She doesn’t speak english and is having a hard time communicating. I rush to her side and translate to the 911 operator for her.
Within minutes the emergency crews arrive and the toddler is in their care. A sense of relief instantly washes over me. I look at the toddler and know he will be okay. (My oldest daughter had something very similar happen and within minutes she was fine.)
As I rub the boy’s back I reassure the parents in my broken spanish that everything is going to be fine. He’s going to be okay.
Maybe that uncomfortable feeling was me feeling this in my body before it happened, I tell myself. As an empath, this is always a possibility, and I know I’ve experienced it first hand before.
Dillon is enraptured with the fire truck and the paramedics as they pile out of their truck like ants, one by one. He grabs his sippy cup from me, plops himself down on a rock, and sits there to watch the whole scene unfold.
45 minutes pass as the boy gets checked out by the paramedics. He is fine fine and released from their care and the trucks with the flashing lights drive away.
Later at home I still can’t shake the discomfort I feel. The sadness is intense and its under my skin. I say a prayer, send love to everyone I know, and snuggle with Dillon.
The next day I hear of the shooting in El Paso. Like a switch being flipped I realize that was what I was feeling. The feeling of knowing is visceral, and in the recognition the discomfort in my body begins to lessen. I realize right then that I was feeling the sadness and pain of the collective.
This has happened a couple of other times before (I write about one very intense and healing time in my upcoming book), but it’s never been so synced with the time of the event.
I’m sharing this with you today because I don’t think I am alone in feeling the energy of the collective.
The energy of our planet is at an all time high. All of us are becoming more and more empathic and are resonating with one another on a deeper, more energetic level.
If you don’t know this is happening it can feel scary, and you may even think there is something wrong with you, or that what you are feeling is yours personally.
In fact, there is nothing wrong with you. Instead, you are up-leveling your own frequency and are connecting to the collective in a deeper way.
How to Manage This New Awareness
If you have experienced sadness, depression and /or anxiousness and can’t find anything that really seems to be the cause you may have tapped into the energy of an event, a situation, or another person.
One way to know is when you become aware of the cause you will feel a sense of recognition. (OH – that’s it!)
When this happens, make an intention to yourself that you are aware of what you are feeling and that it is not yours personally but that you are feeling the collective.
The energy you are feeling then needs to be used somehow. If we sit on these energy surges it can turn into depression or sadness that we then claim as our own.
One of the ways I move energy is by writing and sharing with you. The connection I have with you comes from a deep desire to serve in the way I’ve been guided to serve. (By sharing my experiences.)
My husband shares his energy with his work as a DJ and musician. There are so many sharing their gifts (and energy) from a heart-centered place. (This is why it’s called a “calling” and not a job.)
I also get random bursts of wanting to give stuff away. Furniture, clothes, things I don’t need/use – I box it up and donate it. When the surge hits, I act.
After the El Paso shooting many held community vigils. This is also a way to move the energy we hold.
You may notice a theme here. When we are struck with the energy of the collective, we often get an impulse to connect with the community.
These impulses we have are a critical part of moving through and releasing the energy we hold. The more we give, the more energy we are given to share. If it is stifled it can become negative. When we allow it to move through us it is positive.
With tragic events, such as El Paso, the deepest yearning of our being rises to the surface.
We are a species who thrives on community and belonging. We must share and be a part of a bigger cause that reaches beyond ourselves to feel balanced and uplifted.
This is an important quality of our human nature that must be noticed and acted upon.
You also have ways you’ve been guided to serve. When you feel the energy of the collective, resist sinking into the sadness and use the energy to catapult you forward in acts of service. Not only will you feel better, but your contribution will have a huge affect on humankind.
It’s also important to share how you feel. As empath’s, we tend to want to bottle our feelings up. We especially don’t like feeling like we are a burden or are brining anyone down. Know that when you have open and authentic conversations you invite others to do the same. We can share our feelings from a truthful place without being negative or pessimistic. I know firsthand how valuable these conversations are and how most people crave them.
In a couple of weeks I’m hosting my monthly group session and guided meditation. The space that is held at these monthly sessions is open, loving and authentic. If you’re local, come and be a part of this community of Light. (If you’re not local, I’m working on something for you!)
This month’s session is on Saturday, August 24 from 3:00-4:30pm. Register here:
We meet at my home in Southlake. If you haven’t been before I’ll email the address to you once you register.
September’s gathering will take place beneath the full harvest moon. Save the date for September 14.
In the meanwhile, remember that you are evolving at a rapid pace. Things are changing and shifting within and around you. Take care of yourself. Nurture your gifts and love yourself first. This isn’t selfish, but a symbol of self-worth. And when you feel the energy of the collective, let it move through you. It will serve you and the rest of the world.
Are you feeling the collective? Share in a comment below. You can also share ways that help you move the energy you feel.
With deep love and appreciation for you and all that you are, xo
PS If this served you in any way, it may also serve someone you love. Pass it on. 🙂